Job

So, I love my job. I mean its not my dream job but at least I have job and I have fun doing it.

When I was young, I wanna be a police because of some police drama that was a huge back then. Then I moved school where I learned about science. Like the real science where I learned about so many things. Understand it. Not like my former school where we have just like 3-4 teachers with more than 5 classes. So,the teacher teach us heartless.

In new school where I learn science, I fall in love it instantly and then I wanted to become a doctor till primary school. Then on secondary school, I fall apart, which lead to my disaster academic result. Honestly, I did regret for not being a serious student. If I did, then I'm probably somewhere else right now being somebody who is important to the community. 

All the past stuffs lead me to where I am right now. At first, I don't like my job. Like I felt like I am doing nothing. Specifically, I am doing nothing great stuffs. Just doing stuffs. Office stuffs. I think I lost my way. I want to become an important person. I want to do awesome works but here I am, doing basic things.

But, then I realized, I am actually doing awesome works. I mean, I am doing something. Its not like everyday is dull. 

Well, the story is actually like this. I did my works at workplace but I felt I doing nothing. I put my expectation high. To do great things that will make my boss proud of me. But that was actually I am doing right now. Those little things lead to great things. I am actually working. Not like what I thought. That's what my profession do. 

And yeah, I love my job. I try to wake up everyday. Expecting to do some works done. Back home and have my healing time.Haha. I think what encourages me to wake up everyday to work is my love of my job. At first, i don't like but as time goes I like it. But probably, I have to do something bigger than this. 

I have a lots of plan but then I don't have plan to do it. That's my problem. 

#Nonsensetalks. Pardon me.

Am I mature enough?

I thought I was being mature enough. I am not a baby anymore. I am not a teenager anymore. I am adult now. I can do things on my own. I am grew up now. I don't need my parent's help. Well, that's what I thought. But to be honest being an adult is really-really hardest job ever. I have to do things on my own. All the consequences, I am gonna have to face it. Bad or good. Paying bills (a lot). Wake up on your own. There's no your mom to wake you up. Running non stop errands. Really, I took all this things as easy as breathing before but now I have to take all those thoughts back.

My parent. They always take a good care of me. Sometimes, they're over. Sometimes annoying me a lot. I always said to them that I am not a kid anymore. I'm already big enough to make choices on my own. I am big enough to take care of myself. I asked them to not interfere with my life.

But to think again, I am still a kid actually. When I was at home, I was being this little jerk who only wake up when it's almost noon already. Or just laying in the couch waiting for meal prepared. Or when I lost my things, I don't work hard enough to search for it but rather asking my mom or my sister to find it. Mature enough, right? No wonder my parent always take care of me with extra cares coz I am actually really need an extra care.

So, no matter mature I thought I am, I think I am still kid. One who still need love. Need attention. But at the same time, every single day I have to wake up early (except on weekend, ofc) to work. Have to prepared my as much as simply as possible meals. Laundry. Bills. Housecores. I really really really hate it.

On another note, I'm listening to Ikon's Love Scenarios these days. The song is really good. When I heard it for the 1st time, I don't really like it but after a few listen, I think I'm actually like it a lot. Watching their Weekly Idol appearances. I must say, they are pretty funny fellows. 

That's for today!!Bye!!

Back to NCT Life

Well, I am not gonna make a recap yet since, there's still a lot of works have to be done. * sigh*. I got couple of free time to update little things though but to make recap, it'll take a lot of time. A time when I really appreciate one who constantly make those drama/variety show recaps. Yes, I'm talking about dramabeans. It's been a while I didn't go there since there's no drama/variety show that catch my attention.

Back to NCT Life. I was driving to work this morning when I realized, wow, I don't have a lot of things to watch these days. I watched Wanna One Go. Yes, both seasons with season 1 with only 2 episodes. I wonder why they have only 2. Maybe because they were so busy back then. Yoy know, preparing for their debut. Anyway, they have 8 episode on their latest season and I finished it some time ago and keep replaying it hundreds time already.

And yeah, I got bored it now, haha..well, not exactly but I need something fresh. Then, I thought maybe I should watch NCT Life again (that's not fresh. This called refreshing..hahah) and tried to think what the best and funniest season.I am gonna say the 3rd season is the best. The NCT Life in Paju one. That's was so hilarious. Mark's sneezing. Haechan being savage. Yuta with his samurai sword. Everything. Too bad Doyoung dan Johnny and Ten weren't there. If they did, it will be triple hilarious.

Anyway, I might gonna watch some. I haven't finish recapping NCT Life in Osaka yet. I'm reading books right now. The Hercule Poirot's series. I realized wow my life is busy. I wanna go home.Ohya, I have something fresh to watch, Hyori's Bed and Breakfast Season 2. With Yoona. Argh!!Nice...This is so random. Bye!!