Dream

Been off for a long time.

Struggle whether to write or not. or more like to publish it or not.

I love writing. I write a lot of things in my notebooks.

I have so many thoughts. Lost in my own world. 

People call me cold. People call me funny.  

I dont know anymore..haha..

I can be cold and funny. I can do both. As Hannah Montana said, the best of both world.

Or that one meme of cute little girl saying "why dont we have both".

Its all about balance. 

When I was a child, I dreamed to be a policewomen because of that Datuk Yusof Haslam's famous 2000 ish drama, Gerak Khas...haha..

Just wondering if the drama still ongoing. The last time I was at home, the people in my house watching it, and that was like a long-long time ago. Probably when I was still in my early 20.

Back to the dream of me when I still  a child.

I dont know why but it changed to Doctor. Like doctor is cool. 

Isn't it fascinating if people called me Dr. Sulini.

Wow..my parent would be super proud.

 But then everything went down. I dont become a policewomen. Thats a relief.

I dont become a doctor also. Thats a second relief.

I realized I can't be a policewomen. I'm weak. Like totally weak. Like human paper.

Like human paper Kim Taeyeon or Lee Taeyong (Sorry, Taeyong, I love you)

I cant be a doctor. I dont have that talent to be a doctor..haha

There's one time I watching, The Return of Superman Sam and with his cutie pie so overly cute, William being interview. 

The host and Sam said something like "Don't be a doctor. You will live a miserable life"..haha

I think so too.

Doctor is cool but not for me.

Im still young. Like really young.

or more like my heart stopped growing when I hit 21 years old.

There's actually a lot of things that store ahead for me.

It just matter of time, I'll got everything that I need.

Wait, I have everything that I need already, just probably things that beyond my expectation.

Can't wait but,

For now, I'll just walk and watch everything on the path.

Its beautiful and I wanna enjoy it while I can.

No rush. Just slow walk.

Shalom.